Chapter: 32

If I had thought the castle was beautiful from outside, the inside was incomparable. This inexplicable strength in the castle, or withstanding age old beauty, a type of eternity seemed to be cemented into the very walls.

For a lone wolf who renovated the place, I thought it would be empty and dull but this was extraordinarily beautiful.

“The king made the palace for his mate” Alexa voice snapped me from my mind and I turned my head toward her direction with a raised eyebrow. She smiled and nodded her head “One day my father said that the king wants to have a place that is suitable for her mate, I have joined as the guards only for 10 years now” she explained and I turned my gaze away from her without say anything.

I know what she’s doing…

I know I will forgive him, but not now..

I need time…

I’m too confused and sad right now.

I’m already breathing heavily even though I’ve only been walking for a while, it seems that I’m not fully recovered.

“My Queen…” El called my name as a warning and I pointed my index finger to shush her.

“Let’s go back to my room” I said and walked quietly behind them.

They led me back to my room, I just realized that my room was beautiful and much too grand for me to live in alone. The room was as large as one entire floor of an average sized house. The walls were painted a beautiful warm shade of mocha and contrasted softly with a very light cream coloured silk sheet on the bed.

I just realize there’s an open door, slowly I walk toward the door only to get shocked to know it led me to another room… His room?

O my G*d… His room is right next to mine?!

I watched both Alexa and El bow gently before walking out of my room.

I don’t want to be here, or I want to be here.. I don’t know how I feel right now, I’m so confuse…

I know my heart longing him, but my chest ached as I remember what he done to me.

Releasing a hard breath, I closed the connecting door and sat on one of the cream colored couches near the fireplace exhausted from today’s event. I bit my lip harsly refusing to let anyone hear me crying, but I know with their werewolf hearing I won’t succed, I thought I was incapable of crying any longer, my chest ached with a hollow feeling, throat parched and without realizing I closed my eyes and let myself get lost into deep slumber.

“What? To the human world?!” A frown came into my father’s face when he heard my plan to leave his territory.

No one knows the true reason behind it, why I suddenly needed to go far away from here.

Not here, but from the werewolf world, I just want to be human for once, without this mate thing.

Waking up has always been a struggle for me because after that night, nightmare after nightmare makes me hate sleeping so usually I only sleep for only 2 or 3 hours. Reading and studying is my way to forget the ache in my heart.

I work two different part time jobs in the cafe and library to make myself tired, everything I do to forget him, and it works… for the whole time in the human world never I have time or energy to think about him or my heart break.

I study and work like a robot, I have friends but am afraid to get too close to them because they’re human.

Loneliness is my best friend at that time and I embrace it without complaining.

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